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[08 Aug 2005|04:02pm] |
1) web mastering- roberts
2) algebra II- moon
3) cosmetology- ubernowsky
4) cosmetology- ubernowsky
5) english III- davidson
6) us history- loria
7) cosmetology- ubernowsky
8) cosmetology- ubernowsky
-billie jordan
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[01 Aug 2005|10:59am] |
You Are the Individualist |
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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.
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[29 Jul 2005|06:13pm] |
i'm watching lonesome dove.
it's kind of hard because the last time i watched it was a few years ago with my aunt.
she really loved this movie.
:-\ i have good memories of her.
-billie jordan
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[27 Jul 2005|11:23pm] |
today i cut michelle's hair. then we ate at burger king. then we drove to the woodland's mall. i went in the ladies restroom with her. to get out she stuffed a spare tshirt up my shirt and made me have boobs. then we drove around the asscrack of no where. then we went back to the woodlands mall. came home. got a frostie. i took michelle home. then i came home.
according to my horoscope... i'm a force to be reckoned with.
i intend to keep it that way.
i enjoy those kind of days where you hang out with just one person all day. its more fun.
-billie jordan
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[27 Jul 2005|12:45am] |
today was awesome.
andrea, michelle, felix, james mixon and i hung out and went to see the devil's rejects.
"you hit me once and two things will be doing some hittin'. 1 is me hittin you... and 2 is your dick hittin the dirt."
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss
we ate at taco bell and then walked across the parking lot to wendy's and ate frosties.
"whats that sound? IS SOMEONE STEALING FROM WENDIES? FROSTY DETECTOR!!!!"
it was so much fun.
tomorrow= saw and cutting michelle's hair.
after that it's whatevs.
i'm excited.
tutti fuckin frutti.
-billie jordan
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| summer and me had fun again!!!!!!!!! |
[22 Jul 2005|08:08pm] |
me and summer had fun. we went to the library. and ate yummy stuff at chili's and went to see my old kingwood house and then we went to the woodlands mall via FM 1314 through the boonies of porter. saw 2 people get pulled over by the really mean montgomery county sheriffs. didnt get to go to woodlands cos it was raining like a cow pissing on a flat rock and no where to park. so we came back to humble and went to goodwill and had a few good laughs. we're hanging out again very soon.
( dynamic duo and stuff )
-billie jordan
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[14 Jul 2005|08:04pm] |
your mother sucks cocks in hell.
-billie jordan
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[13 Jul 2005|01:05pm] |
so its rained for like ever.
um forecast for today: heavy showers.
forecast for billie jordan : JOSE CUERVO AAAAAAAHAHAHA
um so i've drank almost 1.75 liters of tequila in 3 days.
my dad is going to be mad if he runs out of good tequila to find i've drank all of his cheap shit in not even a week.
shower time.
-billie jordan
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[11 Jul 2005|11:51pm] |
i need to contract syphilis and be a lesbian and conquer places and turn them into shitholes... and be really short and fat. and smoke opium and stuff.
then i can be on my own bottle of gin like queen vic.
<3z @ bombay saphire
-billie jordan
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[11 Jul 2005|07:36pm] |
today involved lots of alcohol, sitting at home alone, booty-shaking to the new missy elliot song, more alcohol, a grilled cheese sandwich, more alcohol, going to see jd, getting yelled at by jd cos i told him needed to eat something, going home, eating dinner with the family, sitting upstairs alone, and now watching bram stoker's dracula... alone.
tomorrow's plans include driving to the middle of nowhere alone and sitting there.
tequila makes me sleepy after a while.
-billie jordan
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[10 Jul 2005|01:22pm] |
basically my holiday sucked. i left when jd left.
here's the peektars of the port bolivar lighthouse (circa 1900 storm) and stuff on the ferry.
( quand )
-billie jordan
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[01 Jul 2005|10:05am] |
| You Are Chocolate Ice Cream |  You have a flair for the dramatic and love to party.
Your personality is super strong and unique.
Many people crave you constantly - while you turn a few off.
You are most compatible with coffee ice cream. |
ok thats my last entry before thursday.
bon fucking voyage billie jordan.
call me and stuff guys.
lots of pics cos i emptied my memory stick into my pictures folder yesterday so if i bring both i will have maximum capacity set to 118 peektars.
-billie jordan who will miss you all
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[28 Jun 2005|09:22am] |
i had a scheme.
and it's a very good scheme.
a scheme to make someone verrrrrry happy.
:D sometimes you have to give people a leeetle more than they asked for. lagniappe in cajun french.
this time the trojan horse has some very good presents in it instead of a bunch of stinky sweaty greeks.
-billie jordan who feels like ebeneezer scrooge after he woke up on christmas day
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[27 Jun 2005|04:38pm] |
perhaps this should be written as a memoir. yes, that'd be nice. but where to start? i guess i should start in retrospect and recount everything from the very beginning. i haven't even begun to recover from the repercussions wrought by the upheavals of last thursday. nothing is the same, nor will it ever be. the old billie jordan died last thursday. the child-like, hyperactive, ultra-sociable, optimistic ball of light died and will never return. i'm sure a few shards remain of him. these which once constituted a boy happy from the core of his soul to the outer most point on his bright happy aura, but now few remain. shed like a snake's skin that awful night. up until a few hours ago i was sure enough remained of him to be salvaged, but now i am without doubt that all that is left should be destroyed. i thought i could pick up the pieces and include them in a new person, but that wouldn't be right. the new person being forged won't be the same. if i could look to the past, i would reach across the vast oceans of time to the bj before billie jordan. the independant boy who didn't need anyone to be happy for he had himself and he was content. but if i could reach across that chasm i think it would be wiser to have prevented this entire catastrophe from happening. the new billie jordan will be autonomous. billie jordan's fatal flaw was his dependancy on people and his hope for the future. he learned many lessons, but unfortunately there was one he didn't learn. the future is bleak and no one should hope for anything from it. just bear what comes how you are able. i have a difficult task ahead but i can pin responsibility for it on no one but myself. i should've realized every sign leading up to this great disaster, but i was blinded by my own arrogance, and the arrogance of other people. kind words of hope and promise of the future blinded me from the bleak reality of my situation. my ship was sinking. i'm sure if i had realized this so long ago i could've saved it and still been aboard today, unfortunately i am not. this is how the old billie jordan would have written butthese eloquent words cannot be given to anyone else. the pieces left from this calamity will be destroyed until none are left and then construction of a new person will begin. the one person who i once depended on is gone and i feel more distant now than ever from him. i wish with all my heart that he would return, well, i wish with all my heart that both of them would return- billie jordan and jd, but yet again, that is worthless. thursday night was entirely my fault, because of my dependancy on jd and because of my paranoia. when my dependency couldn't be met, my paranoia invented false threats and sent out the call for war. when all my munitions had been deployed, i was left with a deep need to be with jd again, but i had pushed him too far away. this sent me into a psychotic depression culminating in the breaking of my cellphone, the trashing of my room, the denting of my walls and ultimately enough stress placed upon myself to make me sick. i am just beginning to recover from this strep-throat esque ailment i acquired... but the changes to my relationship are just being felt. since friday depression has attacked me like bombing raids, coming in waves, of course now that the war is over the only bombing left is to try to destroy the rubble. unfortunately i am destroying myself in the process. i feel another wave about to attack me so i must finish quickly. i just want my jd, the old jd back. this new relationship with absolutely no certainty is taking it's toll on me just as the other problems have. i have no allies in this war, although i have allied with many when they have been in similar positions. everyone plays down the truth and i don't know why. someone, although i'm not sure who, told jd that i would die if he broke up with me. well, whoever they are is probably right. this sickness i have is from almost being broken up with. i don't know how i would've fared if jd had actually severed ALL ties with me. now i am going to crawl back to the bombed-out hole of rubble that is now myself and make a promise, that once i have rebuilt, i will always look to the future and never to the past. i will be independant. i will be stoic. but these are all i have to go by. right now the reality is that i have nothing to rebuild and nothing to rebuild it with. i am all alone in this dreary bombed-out city. and it is entirely up to me to build a new one.
-bj
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[20 Jun 2005|12:04pm] |
"Balls!" cried the Queen- "If I had them I'd be king!"
from Rudyard Kipling's
Queen Victoria's Lament
-billie jordan
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[13 Jun 2005|12:41pm] |
Take the quiz: "Your Psych-Ward diagnosis"
Dependent Personality Disorder
Diagnosis: Dependent Personality Disorder. A pervasive and excessive need to be taken care of that leads to submissive and clinging behavior and fears of separation. Difficulty making everyday decisions without an excessive amount of advice and reassurance from others. Needs others to assume responsibility for most major areas of his or her life. Has difficulty expressing disagreement with others because of fear of loss of support or approval
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[02 Jun 2005|09:52am] |
today i had an adventure and it isn't even 10h00.
i woke up at 7h00 to go to cosmetology.
left the house at 8h15 and got to school at around 8h30. cosmetology room is closed.
saw deb the crackhead janitor but she didn't see me.
got back to my car and decided i wanted to go on an adventure.
drove out of the auto tech parking lot and took a left onto wilson road which i proceeded to follow until it intersected with beltway 8. turned left on beltway 8. followed beltway 8 until it intersected with I-10.
took the bridgey thing onto I-10 which i rode on until i saw the first exit for baytown. got off. turned around at the first crossover (Slap Gulley Turnaround) Proceeded back to I-10 east and as soon as i was on the highway again i realized i needed to go west to go home. got off I-10 and ended up in truckersville, texas. went under I-10 and got back on in the direction i needed to be going. Exited on Crosby-Lynchburg Road. Drove through Highlands and Barrett Station. Went under highway 90 and kept going through crosby and the like. Came to 1960. turned left. drove on 1960 to pinhurst trails. made a right. drove on pinehurst trails until it intersected with firesign dr. turned left. drove on firesign until it intersected with january dr. turned right. drove down january drive until i saw my driveway. turned right and into my driveway. got out of my car. went in the backyard to find my sister and the neighbour boy riding their bikes into the pool. um ok.
i enjoyed my adventure other than 18-wheelers with asshole drivers and mexicans who don't see your brake lights are on and almost rear-end you going about 60 while your at a complete stop. and thinking i needed to go east when i needed to go west. :D
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that's really ironic because driving through barrett station made me think of the klan. in case you didn't know, barrett station is a black community dating from when the slaves got freed to now, sandwiched between highlands and crosby. there have been alot of murders there by the klan. it was really scary driving through there.
-billie jordan
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